[Xuandy]

There is a saying; People have a tendency to change when they become loaded or boss or victorious. Do you believe?


He had just passed his examination and is rewarded with a certificate; he will be starting his company soon, which means he will be on his own, which also mean we will have lesser time together. (oh God!) He's already getting so anxious with his new office locality; money to dump in to kick starts the business and whatever that is required to make it sound right.


After re-taking the papers for God knows how many times, I am thrilled that he finally got the credential and now he can finally perceive his potential future, career and the direction he is heading to. I am definitely happy for him (I've been saying this twice) but could this be a goodbye to my - I thought it is a sturdy relationship? He will be so busy with work and how on earth am I going to cope with lonely weekends and dinner for one? All alone.


'I should have faith in him and in our relationship. After all, we came a long, long way.' I advise myself.


'But things might go terribly wrong anytime! Goddamn it!' My voice was a strangled cry in my throat.

'I know I should trust him and assist him in whatever ways I can, but the sickening fear is eating me up. I don't want to wait by the doors at 5am in the morning and welcoming a drunkard home because of some silly socializing! I don't want to cry myself to sleep! I don't want to find agenda for myself! Good heaven knows how I hated all this. I been through all this!'


I tried explaining all these fear to him, but even before I learned how to speak, I was interrupted by his assurance tone.

'Please! I will not changed for a bit.' he 'comforted' me.


Next, I clutch on to the receiver with the engage tone on the other line, he has gone out hastily for an appointment, unknowningly of course.
I stare blankly at the monitor of my laptop, thinking of all the possible cause that leads to a breakup and my spine gone weak. I felt the band of tension wrap itself around me again.

'I am only scaring myself, things might not be that bad, like I've said, we been through a lot.' I wipe off my tears.

'Still, how am I going to deal with the oncoming challenges? I know I will be fighting all alone again. I know that I will have to be f**king strong when I don't have the strength again, just to make sure this relationship won't fall apart.'

I close my eyes and start to pray. God, please keep this relationship strong. Please.

What if this business failed? It another issue that I dare not even think of.



What would 1 do? Simply keeping silence? and how long can it be?

[KeRoPi]

wah.. words so small cannot see..

[拓哉]

Xuandy you click Edit then click " Go Advanced" button, from there you change the fonts to size 3 or bigger.

[solid]

A lot of things will change as life moves.
Can understand, as a guy i would also want to strive the best for the career.

With the winds and storm in the outside world, people would somehow change and views change.

There is no saying the guy is wrong or not in this case. Somehow in life, all this is have to depends.

Was once ask to choose between love and career. To balance both is surely a challenge.

[downfall22]

huh! what is the purposes for all the strives in career and monetary gains? for a better life with your love ones.. if while persuing career or money u lost your love ones then what's the point?!

[solid]

I once heard something from a friend.

If would to let you choose between love and career. what would be your choice.

he gave me a answer i found to be very agreeable. Who say that one could not have both career and love. You could strive for a career and love at the same time.

If love fail and your career fail too...would it not be too much a poor soul?

To me, love and career are 2 separate stuff. both are stuff that need to strive and work hard for and in the end, leave it to fate.

[jiemin83]

Hi Xuandy, long time no see!

Hope the below helps those who are reading.


There is a saying; People have a tendency to change when they become loaded or boss or victorious. Do you believe?


He had just passed his examination and is rewarded with a certificate; he will be starting his company soon, which means he will be on his own, which also mean we will have lesser time together. (oh God!) He's already getting so anxious with his new office locality; money to dump in to kick starts the business and whatever that is required to make it sound right.


After re-taking the papers for God knows how many times, I am thrilled that he finally got the credential and now he can finally perceive his potential future, career and the direction he is heading to. I am definitely happy for him (I've been saying this twice) but could this be a goodbye to my - I thought it is a sturdy relationship? He will be so busy with work and how on earth am I going to cope with lonely weekends and dinner for one? All alone.


'I should have faith in him and in our relationship. After all, we came a long, long way.' I advise myself.


'But things might go terribly wrong anytime! Goddamn it!' My voice was a strangled cry in my throat.



'I know I should trust him and assist him in whatever ways I can, but the sickening fear is eating me up. I don't want to wait by the doors at 5am in the morning and welcoming a drunkard home because of some silly socializing! I don't want to cry myself to sleep! I don't want to find agenda for myself! Good heaven knows how I hated all this. I been through all this!'


I tried explaining all these fear to him, but even before I learned how to speak, I was interrupted by his assurance tone.



'Please! I will not changed for a bit.' he 'comforted' me.



Next, I clutch on to the receiver with the engage tone on the other line, he has gone out hastily for an appointment, unknowningly of course.
I stare blankly at the monitor of my laptop, thinking of all the possible cause that leads to a breakup and my spine gone weak. I felt the band of tension wrap itself around me again.


'I am only scaring myself, things might not be that bad, like I've said, we been through a lot.' I wipe off my tears.


'Still, how am I going to deal with the oncoming challenges? I know I will be fighting all alone again. I know that I will have to be f**king strong when I don't have the strength again, just to make sure this relationship won't fall apart.'


I close my eyes and start to pray. God, please keep this relationship strong. Please.

What if this business failed? It another issue that I dare not even think of.



What would 1 do? Simply keeping silence? and how long can it be?

[Xuandy]

thanks

I kinda agreed to some of u here, really i dunno wat I am goin thru... a mix i guess

[RaiNyDrOpS]

Hi Xuandy...be strong okie...

I can understand all the fear in you and all the thoughts running thru your mind... Yes..have faith in yourself, in him and this relationship..i noe is hard.. and after he start his business, he might tend to neglect you more bcoz of wrk... but you got to understand..he is doing all these..wrking so hard now hoping that you and him will lead a better life later on... even though he might not have time for you...but hey u got the time rite? You can always drop by his company, assist him in watever you can, bring food there and eat it together with him... i noe some guys dun like tat esp when it comes to wrk.. but at least let him noe that you are always there for him.... Jia You Xuandy!!!

[solid]

Sorry.. this story belongs to u?

agee with RaiNyDrOpS..

Jia You!!!!

[Xuandy]

There is something that i might have left out.

He is a very nice, in a way innocent guy. A good "boy" in short. Spend quality time with his mum and me (together) Soon, he will get into partnership wit a uncle (fren) of his, which my bf claim that tis uncle took great care of him.

But i dun feel comfortable with him. I jus dun feel rite abt this guy, i dun feel that he is trustworthy and somehow i find him always up to no good. and my bf seems to have 100% trust in him. Worst, there are fren of theirs, who 1 look, and you kno it a 'bad' guy. but this is jus my opinion.

And yes, this is happening rite in my life now!
sad

[solid]

Ya.. can understand how u feel..
As a guy, i also understand his point of view.

Even if you tell him what is ur feel, i know he would also ask you not to worry..
cause i would also do that..

[RaiNyDrOpS]

Well...i believe that is always a Risk involve when setting up your own business..and looking at wat u said..ur bf seem to be veri keen and enthu in this partnership...i guess he is going all out for it ... he might keep assuring you...well although you dun feel rite about "this guy" but i guess there is nothing much tat you can do...or else you bf will tink tat you are trying to stop him and chances tat both of u end up in a quarrel will be very big... im sure u wont want tat to happen... your support to him now is very important...whether the business will be a success anot..wat matter most is watever that happens...both of you will stick thru it together....

[jiemin83]

Hmmm... i think he's determined to make it work, somehow.

Maybe just to remind your darling to put some time away to spend with you every week because you're feeling more and more like a doll on the dusty shelf.

Also, tell him to jia you and that you're supporting him, but also tell him to not put all his eggs into one basket. Remind him that his gf wants to be with him forever, and don't live on air.

It's hard to warn someone against their relatives, but if you can, try to spot the loop holes and to caution your bf. Don't point fingers at his relatives though, be tactful.


It's a very happy thing when your bf/gf support what you do. Xuandy, be more optimistic! He loves you, and I bet he doesn't know you feel neglected or have these questions so tell him, somehow!

Also, trust his love for you.

[solid]

I am sure he still love you a lot. Be there for him, he will appreciate it.
Go thru all this with him. support him.

That's something a guy want, someone to support him.